o-kay, i just went to Holiday World w/a group of married couples from church and we had a great time! the weather was hot and the lines were long but isn't that what amusement parks are all about?!
now to my story....
the last 9 months of my life have been a time of testing, trails, failures, regrets, and sadly a huge disappointment to God.
Themed around the classic Halloween story The Legend of Sleepy Hollow, The Legend roller coaster is located in the hilly, wooded terrain of Holiday World's Halloween section.as The Legend races through the woods as if chased in terror by the relentless Headless Horseman. they warn the riders: Don't look back!The Legend features a series of dramatic drops, including three major drops of 113 feet and 64 feet, plus spiral drop of 77 feet, a double helix, and multiple crossovers with existing rides. The coaster also thunders through four tunnels, including an underground tunnel.
now all of that may seem like useless knowledge of an amusement park ride but it describes my life lately. as i was riding the before mentioned coaster these thoughts came to me. trucking up the long hill in anticipation of the unknown of whats ahead and what you are about to encounter. this was my life BEFORE the trail came. i was excited about life and living for God and working for His kingdom. and then i topped the hill. i could see the huge drop in front of me but it was too late before i could say no and get off the ride of life i was zooming down a hill that turned into a valley. in this valley there have been turns and more hills to climb just to plumitt back down again and dark tunnels that were so cold and lonely;i tried to pray during these times of traveling but i was weak, bruised, shaken up, and not to mention afraid. i had only hoped for a good friend to appear and hold my hand through this ride and say everything will be o-kay ...i will ride with you. i'm sure i had a few that offered to ride with me but because of my pride or possibly embarassment i chose to ride alone.
it has been long, hard, rough, bumpy, and scary ride. i am ready to get off of this ride now. i am ready to regain my life back. i am ready to have my new beginning. thank-you to my true friends who have had to sadly watch my life spin out of control but still stood by me. most of all, thank you Lord, for your endless mercy and grace.
Struggling HOT MESS over here!!!
9 years ago
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that's the thing about roller coaster rides, eventually they all end. We get off the ride walk around for a little while, wait in line, and get on another one. Such is life. Weaping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning. That doesn't make sense does it? Oh well.
it was a matter of time before the hound dogs of mercey and grace would catch up too you....i love you so much!
I'm crying. I love you. I hope I was one of those friends who offered to take the ride with you.
I've been on a few roller coaster rides myself. Somehow God's always waiting for me there when I come back into the bay to help me get safely off the ride.
Isn't God's grace and mercy totally amazing? We can't ever seem to get away from it.
I'm up for any ride...any time with you, sister.
I know we dont talk much anymore, but I want you to know that I do care about you and am praying for you. I am still here for you if you ever want to talk.
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